urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pawnshop_radio are you ready, are you ready, well are you ready for this? hannah bee 2009-09-22T14:51:59Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pawnshop_radio:26341 2009-09-22T14:51:59Z 2009-09-22T14:51:59Z is so so so dead. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pawnshop_radio:20196 2008-10-09T17:41:06Z 2008-10-09T17:43:25Z i hate you. bye now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pawnshop_radio:19244 2008-05-05T18:41:09Z 2008-05-05T18:41:09Z it seems to be a continuous shitty cycle of restoration and loss. although no matter what i seem to do the loss never catches up.<br /><br />seriously? FUCK YOU. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pawnshop_radio:13203 2007-09-08T19:58:46Z 2007-09-08T19:58:46Z <b>Silverstein</b>RedLightPledge warning: this is probably super offensive if you are involved in some kind of organized religion. read on with caution.<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><br />the thing that gets me about the way i grew up is not the complete isolation from anyone but my little "church bubble", but the disgusting hypocrisy and mechanics of it all. i was not born simply as another jehovahs witness marrying-baby making-conversion machine. i was born with a fucking brain and the ability to think for myself.<br /><br />while i don't disagree with everything in the religion, i also don't agree with most of it either. when i was around 3 or 4 my parents discovered the true religion and just like that my christmas, birthday parties, and trick or treating was over. i grew up in a house where i wasn't allowed to associate with anyone but people from church. but the only problem was no one wanted their kids to hang out with me. <br /><br />rebel, rebel.....<br /><br />this wasn't because i was on all sorts of drugs and i was dangerous. no no my friend, it was simply because i wanted a normal life. and i was bad association. <br /><br />do you fucking understand what kind of things like "bad association" and terms like that do a persons self esteem? <br /><br />i grew up being taught to have a healthy fear of god and respect, but i fucking <i>feared</i> him. i don't understand what kind of a god would create people with the ability of free will and human thinking and then punish them and all mankind allowing this shit hole of a planet to digress further and further into moral deprivation and decline. <br /><br />most of my friends that are witnesses are married or getting married. most of them can't even drink alcohol yet because theyre not 21.<br /><br />i cant live with someone telling me with to do all the time. thats why i moved out of my house. i also can't live day to day feeling like i am going to die because i don't worship the same god as my mother and god is going to kill me because i am not a jehovahs witness.<br /><br />it's all based on loopholes and lies, im just glad i was born with a mind that works instead of turning into another blind soldier.